i am not going to lie: jessica linn

dunkin donuts coffee mmmmmmm

jessicalinn — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 16:41:25 +0000

I enjoy the hazelnut flavor. It’s unbelievable, the best hazelnut flavored coffee of any brand…I’ve tried them all.

this one’s for the leaders….

jessicalinn — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 23:59:50 +0000

For The Leaders - Luciano

This is my appeal
To all your leaders out there, to stop the war.
Cuz theres no justifiable reason
It’s about time..that you realize…that your not fulfilling your true purpose

This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world
This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world

Think about the youths, who are dying out, (dying out)
Crying out (crying out) for love.
Victims of the system, we divide and grow
To break us down, & tear us apart
What is the future of the human race
How will the children grow to take our place
Where is the love that we should all embrace
I do believe it’s here, for you and me

This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world
This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world

Thiiiiis one..is for, the leaders who are fighting war..
All over the wooorld
Imagine all the money, that you spend on arms
Guns and bombs, to destroy
While people are left hungry, to die from wants
And those who do survive are unemployed
What is the future of the human race
How will the children grow to take our place
Where is the love that we should all embrace
I do believe, it here for you and me

This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world
This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world

This one..This one…(for the children)…This one
Thiiiiiiss oooooooonnnnnneee, This one for the, This one for the
This one for the leaders
This one, this one is for the leaders…

what do i do? what do i do to deserve to be treated this way?

jessicalinn — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 00:51:34 +0000

What do I do..?
I need to know right now what do I do to be treated with such disrespect, so I can change it. What do I do to make people look at me and think: “She is an idiot. She is completely worthless, can’t do anything right, and I need to make sure she knows it!” so regularly?? I wish I could admit this is a little extreme, but I feel it is not.
So, what is it? What am I doing wrong?
I desperately seek an answer.

i don’t ask for much

jessicalinn — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 06:12:31 +0000

you know, I don’t ask for much….only a little respect. i mean, I do all of the dishes, laundry, grocery shopping, cooking, bill paying, cleaning, errand running, all of that, alone, without complaining……on top of a full time job too…

You say you’re going to take care of one month, one month of the bill paying. You didn’t step up to the plate…and it’s all my fault? And, you get to be mad at me?

what have I done so…?

jessicalinn — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 15:14:45 +0000

why can’t you please just be nice to me?

Of a man whom I cannot name…

jessicalinn — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 17:10:43 +0000

His condescending nature is so rampant he could make Einstein feel stupid. Think of the layman…!

long day longing for home and hubby

jessicalinn — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 03:30:04 +0000

I’m just sad at the fact that all day long all I could think about how badly I just wanna get home. I just wanna get home to cuddle with my hubby…and because he decided to “read” my actions as crabby right away when I got home, I mean literally like within minutes. and sure I was rushing around trying to take care of all the things that need to get taken care of…like putting your laundry away and making sure the frozen fruit doesn’t thaw and go bad….doing that as fast as I could so alas I could finally hang with my baby, and trying to talk him over the blaring tv, apparently this is yelling, and I don’t even get eye contact because I’m crabby And yelling. not even given a chance to be written off as anything but crabby. so I apologize if I am a little upset, but what a way to be greeted after a long ass day.

how do you tell me you love me?

jessicalinn — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 20:11:14 +0000

why can’t you communicate to me what is going on in your life?
why cant you look to me for support?
instead you give me the cold shoulder.
that doesnt tell me you love me.

id rather have someone kick the shit out of me than get the cold shoulder.
thats not an exaggeration.

religions and them being denominational

jessicalinn — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 00:53:51 +0000

So I had a really great chat with Heidi today. She is in the cities this weekend and we met up at burrito loco for lunch today. Tt was really nice, and great to be able to have a talk like that. Anyways, we ended up at the topic of religion and I realized I sort of have some really strong feelings about that. And it all points to one conclusion: we all pray to the same god. I just have such a problem with religions like christianity in which there are so many holes. Like, for example, the story of Jesus dying on the cross and resurrecting 3 days later. One theory is that on the 6th part of the Stations of the Cross (the depiction of the final hours of Jesus in Catholicism) in which Veronica wipes Jesus’ face with her veil, in fact the veil was covered in opium and when Jesus inhaled that was in effect drugged, and that helps him get through the length of the crucifiction, while he is passed out, his body is so drugged that he is in a sort of coma. Three days later he wakes up from that coma and gets himself out of the tomb he was placed in. That is ridiculously plausible. In my logic, it is much much more plausible than someone divinely rising from the dead. Or another example: not eating mean on Fridays during lent. Where the hell did that come from? Im pretty sure there is no theological bearing behind that. Im so sure, in fact, that I challenge anyone out there to prove it to me. Prove to me that not eating meat on Friday actually means something (and specifically when and why it came about). I doubt you will find anything, but I beg you to try. haha anyways pardon my stubbornness, as I said, I just feel very strongly about this. I have much more respect for religions like Islam, where everything is defined and straightforward. Hardly as contradictory as Christianity’s forms. Which is another reason for its coherence. There are not so numerous and divergent sections or sects of Islam. Unfortunately I do not know much about some of the other major religions like Hinduism, Buddhism, Mormonism, or haha Scientology, but I would like to. And why is Jesus, of all the ‘prophets’ the son of god? Perhaps that is a naive question on my part, but for someone who actually attended years and years of religion classes in Catholicism, you’d think I should know, huh? haha, maybe I just repressed it. aaaahahahaha. No, but going back to the prophets point, the conjoining of the religions at that particular point alone, seeing Jesus as a prophet of God (or son of God) in both religions, is what I think is a great example that points to religions all praying to the same god. And all past and future religions too! All the greek gods and the native american traditional spirits, and all of that is just a different manifestation of the same entity: God. Why is God sometimes called Allah (in both Christianity AND Islam) or Yahweh (in both Judaism and Christianity) or Jehovah or Jah? Which one is right? Are any of them right? What does that mean? I dont know, if monotheism sees one single god as omniscient, everlasting, and omnipresent, and polytheism basically sees many gods as everlasting omniscient (in their subject) and in totality (i.e. including all of them together) are omnipresent, what exactly is the difference? What is the difference if one god controls all the specific pieces of life, OR many gods controlling specific pieces of life separately, but wholly still control everything? I dont know. Maybe Im looking at it too superficially, but if not differentiated at a basic level, why does it matter if they manifest it in a different way? I guess I just also hate the idea of organized religion. Once it becomes organized, not only is there room for corruption, does it become cult-like, but it also loses its meaning! Things become ritual, so ritualed and overdone that it becomes naturalized and no one knows what it means anymore! I like the idea of religion. People need something to have faith in, something greater to believe in. But it should be personal to you. It should be what is currently more often stated as Spirituality. You should always have a one-on-one relationship with God, and the way you prove it to him should mean something, not just be a ritual that you’re doing because…you don’t even really know why you’re doing them! Whether or not you take particular aspects from any of the ‘major’ religions now and practicing them because they really have come to mean something to you, thats fine, great! But the restraint of having to also follow other aspects of the religion in which you do not exactly agree with should not persist, as it does in an organized religion.

So, thats my take on Religion/Spirituality.

peace.

what you focus on…

jessicalinn — Wed, 20 Feb 2008 19:23:54 +0000

What you focus on, is what you will always see.

If you think someone is being stupid, you are going to notice all the stupid things they do. (and none of the smart things they do). If you think someone is annoying, you are going to see all the annoying things they do. If you think someone is mad, you are going to notice all the potential signs that might reinforce your belief that they are mad. If you think someone is being silly, you are going to notice all the silly things they do. If you think someone is beautiful, you are going to notice all the beautiful things they do. It’s up to you what you focus on. (and what to deem trivial). And it probably sucks being on the receiving end wondering why all of a sudden someone thinks you’re annoying when you’ve acted the same way on other days and they thought you were beautiful.

If you think the world is out to get you, then you will find ‘evidence’ that might reinforce that. If you think you hate something, then you are going to see all the ways in which it is bad. Take mayo for example. If you think you hate mayo, then you think you will hate a tuna salad sandwich. Until someday someone has to blind you by telling you there is no mayo in something to get you to try it. Turns out, you like it; they’ve opened your eyes. But the problem is, your eyes were closed to begin with. You closed your eyes. Or, on the other hand, if you think something, or some place, is the best thing, nothing compares. Then you are going to think every other thing, or place, is unbearable. You have to open your eyes.

Life is what you make it.