What you focus on, is what you will always see.

If you think someone is being stupid, you are going to notice all the stupid things they do. (and none of the smart things they do). If you think someone is annoying, you are going to see all the annoying things they do. If you think someone is mad, you are going to notice all the potential signs that might reinforce your belief that they are mad. If you think someone is being silly, you are going to notice all the silly things they do. If you think someone is beautiful, you are going to notice all the beautiful things they do. It’s up to you what you focus on. (and what to deem trivial). And it probably sucks being on the receiving end wondering why all of a sudden someone thinks you’re annoying when you’ve acted the same way on other days and they thought you were beautiful.

If you think the world is out to get you, then you will find ‘evidence’ that might reinforce that. If you think you hate something, then you are going to see all the ways in which it is bad. Take mayo for example. If you think you hate mayo, then you think you will hate a tuna salad sandwich. Until someday someone has to blind you by telling you there is no mayo in something to get you to try it. Turns out, you like it; they’ve opened your eyes. But the problem is, your eyes were closed to begin with. You closed your eyes. Or, on the other hand, if you think something, or some place, is the best thing, nothing compares. Then you are going to think every other thing, or place, is unbearable. You have to open your eyes.

Life is what you make it.

i dont really know what to write today, but somehow i just want to. its funny because after i wrote that first sentence, i sat here for about 5 minutes thinking of what to write, and guess what i came up with….? nothing. I guess i just kinda feel depressed. i mean, being broke REALLY sucks, and what sucks even more is feeling like youre working your buns off yet not being able to really make a dent in doing anything about it. and what sucks even worse is feeling like i was pushed into this situation. why dont i have a job right now? i honestly couldnt tell ya. i seem to remember someone telling me that a job would always be there when i needed it, yet, its not. oh well, im over it, i guess. its just so hard to be in transition, and in such a weird type of transition. i mean, do i apply at restaurants and coffeeshops (if i could even get in with my stupid school schedule being all over the place) to maybe work there for a few months until i graduate, upon which i will necessarily be attempting to find a job that actually puts my skills to use? or what? or what? i guess i just need a little guidance. or something. it sucks cuz i feel like i need someone to talk to, yet cant find the right words to say. but then, thats always been a problem of mine. which brings me to my next topic, French. man, sometimes i feel like im rockin that language, and the next its like i know nothing. i just really want to be comfortable with it, but why the heck is it so damn hard for me to speak it? maybe for the same reason that ive always had problems with words in english too. who knows. someday i think ill figure it out. but for right now, im just Lost.
which brings me to my next topic, the show, Lost. How freakin excellent is this show anyways? oh man, so many questions. i shall have to come back to this topic though because i must get myself out the door to go to class, then to work the wonderful world of assembly line. (which somedays is actually not so bad, its just the thought of how i got here to begin with that is so bad).

peace.