well, vacation was a blast. for the whole time, i rarely knew what day it was, nor what time of the day it was, and it was bliss. i dont know why i used that word, i dont really like it. at all. but anyways, pretty much doesnt get any better than that for me. first kany and i drove up to grand rapids mn to WayneFest ‘06, oh man, it was real fun, except drinking all day is hard work, i know ive said it before, but it really is exhausting! lots of volleyball, lots of the lake, and CDR! hell yeah, man, Common Difference Revival for sure. the performance was awesome. Brian Shawn Josh and Paul did an awesome job they have the BEST songs, well, the ones theyve written any ways. im just never a big fan of covers…except Alabama for sure. oh man, Alabama is pretty great. ooooooo theres a fire in the night… ! and i got a CDR groupie tshirt. it fits niiiice. then waynefest fireworks are better than any other display ive seen yet. i seriously wonder how much he spends on them. and i do look forward to the taco feed, so much lovliness involved with assembly line all you can eat tacos with your family and friends… i wish we could have fished in the fishing contest though, even if it is at 8am. that would have been nice. i tried, but i didnt want to impose on anyone. ill just have to get a boat of my own, i suppose. or kany to get one. and then tuesday trucking it all the way down to shawano to meet the momma and the papa and the rest of the fam’. and moving on to minoqua to a different campground. which reminded me of like ‘corporate’ camping. there was over 200 sites, and they were all dirt, no grass, really shady though, so that was really really nice, but they were all pre apportioned spaces with retaining walls to square them off. and a lot of seasonals…these new seasonal ‘campers’ that look more like trailers in trailer park, but with like steel siding and view windows and stuff. i dont know…it just kinda took something away for me. but it was still nice, there was a beach and a pool, didnt go to either, actually, but went in the boat and tried wakeboarding again, whcih i still cant do by the way…ahhhh. and heres kany just chillin no problem getting on top of the water, and trista with those skis, shes jumping the wake, and trying to kick one off and go on a single ski. just has the hang of it completely. yeah, im jealous. shit. but ill keep trying at least. i cant give up, nope. and there was shuffleboard. i do love the shuffleboard…but i didnt get to play that much. and in minoqua theere was a really cool ski show that we went to. they perform every sunday wednesday and friday, and we went on friday. it was great. and the coolest thing was, it wasnt like a perfect, practiced, synchronized show. it was just basically practice for all the people that go off to competition and tournaments and stuff. i liked that. then saturday we headed for home. we left at like 10, and got home around 5. dude, driving takes it OUT of me! omg. i couldnt beleive how tired i was, i literally just crashed! and then sunday, i was still recovering, i barely had the ambition then to clean out the car and go grocery shopping…and it ended up taking forever to get that done too.
and then, turns out, EVERYONE at work just forgot that i told them i wasnt going to be at work last week, some of them i told like 3 times! and still, no one remembered. funny how this sort of thing seems to happen to me a lot. or at least i notice this anyways. i get the feeling many times that people just dont listen to me. whether i am telling them about my weekend, or that i would like to take of work. i dont know if there is some high frequency tone in my voice or something that the average ear cant hear, or what. but i truly do hate that feeling, very much. and dont get me wrong, sometimes i may just not be clear about something, i know that i am terrible about that, not being able to say things as i wish people to understand them. but i may also just be more vague because it is the second time i am saying it and i am assuming that you remember the details from the first time. and i guess it may come with the age also, too young to really know anything, so no sense in paying attention… …not all the time of course, and no one in particular…but i just notice that it happens quite a bit where i have to either repeat myself several times, or say i told you so. and in some cases, i get offended. especially like when a service technician comes in, and i am the one that calls them, and they just so happen to come in 15 minutes after the another worker comes in, and instead of asking me what the problem is, looking right past me, and talking to the other person. and the reason why that bothered me the most was because the other person that had just come in, had been gone the whole past week. and the service technician had been in that past week and saw me working that shift, and asked the other person if they had been working the past couple of nights…! just an example. a quite recent one, in fact. its just really offending to me for someone to automatically assume something about me, especially about my skills or aptitude, or even myself as a person, without any basis or evidence, or with misinterpreted evidence. and straight up, makes me feel like shit.
anyways, this week ive been working quite a bit. and i do need to catch up, so its alright. tomorrow is dads birthday, so i am going to spend the day with them at the campground. and then work on sunday.
you know, im actually kind of excited for school. i think i get this way at about this time every summer. i know i did last summer for sure. but i also know that i definately needed this break. ive gotten myself back to reality and back to…me. for awhile there it seemed like everything was just clouded or something. but only having 15 credits for the next semester instead of 19 is something to look forward to definately. i wish i could help kany make his decisions about school, i just dont know what to tell him. and most importantly, i dont want to influence him in any way that might be away from what he really wants. and especially wouldnt want him to find out later that it wasnt what he wanted. and i need to make some decisions myself. but i think i know what i want to do. ive really been thinking about this for a long time now, and its going to be a lot of work, but i think im going to do it: start learning french instead of continuing spanish. i mean, for global studies i need to actually take the 4 semesters of the language anyways, i cant just test out of them. and i have 3 left of spanish anyways, so why not take something that I can actually use? Plus, for where i want to go in the future (which also isnt quite certain) i dont think i want to deal with spanish speaking countries. i dont want to be in central america, or south america, i want to deal with europe, and spain is like an entirely different form of spanish than what ive been learning anyways. I really want to do that, and i really need to figure all of that out, very soon…hopefully, and i am assuming there is, that there is something similar to what i was going to do anyways, and that is go and study abroad for language, many of them you dont need any prior knowledge of the language, and you can take 4 semesters worth in one semester. and i definately need to go somewhere that has that as the main language and immerse myself into it, because that is how i want to learn a different language. that is basically the only way ill ever be fluent, because i tend to be able to get good grades in the classes the way they teach it here, same as high school, and not really learn it like i want to anyways. so yeah, i need to go talk to someone about that, and go to the study abroad meeting, like in the next couple of weeks.
well, thats all what ive been thinking a lot about lately. and more, of course, but i havent thought about those enough to be able to write them down. they shall come. anyways, PEACE for now. LOVE.
