hahaha.

SO, Kany and I went to Burrito Loco last night, and I got the Loco Burrito and he got the Fajita Burrito. Well, we bring them home and we bring them out of the bag so that we can eat them….and what do we see? CUTEST THING EVER. The server wrote on the outside of the foil wrapping “His” and “Hers” to distinguish them. OMG I almost died laughing. Just like the bath towels. And its not like he put “Loco” on one and “Faj” on the other or anything like that. “His” and “Hers”. haha i love it.

So, for some reason, it really pisses me off, not just a little irritation, but it pisses me off when people say that animlas have emotion. They dont.

They simply exist, learn, evolve, and reproduce. If they display something that appears to be fear, that is a response saying get the hell out of here so you dont die. If they display something that appears to be anger, they are defending themselves…so they dont die. If they display something that appears to be sadness, they are just conserving their energy so that they dont repeat the same situation, because they may appear weak. If they are displaying something that appears to be joy, they are simply helping themselves to remember to perform that certain action. So, I guess, in effect, animals do have these primitive, basic emotions. But they are not in the same manner as humans. They are simply survival tactics.

Animals have learned how to get you to divert your attention from yourself to them. So then, that ends up making you feel better because you think they are trying to make you feel better, when they are actually being selfish and only wanting you to pet them or feed them or walk them, or be their ally, so they make it a better chance that they dont die. Thats the problem, humans are what create this anthropomorphism, and they sit there and convince themselves of it.

Scientists have proven that no animals (not even primates) even have empathy (i.e. understanding what another animal is thinking.) Animals do not have theory of mind, which means they attribute mental processes to other individuals/animals. Without a theory of mind it is impossible for an animal or person to show tactical deception. Animals do not even have a self-concept. Your dog or cat isnt smart enough to even tell the difference between itself and another dog or cat of the same species. Scientists have done tests on animals to prove this. They made some distinguishing mark on an animal and put it in front of a mirror and the animal didnt respond by grooming. (the only animals that did were chimpanzees, some great apes, (not even monkeys) and some cetaceans…)
Despite how many lay persons beileve this, there are very few scientists that accept the idea of animal emotions. HMM.

DO NOT tell me that animals have emotions or even higher cognitive skills. They are simply products of survival and memory.

so, finals, OVER. unbelieveable is the relief that i feel. it actually scares me a little knowing how incredibly different i was for…like, the whole semester. the whole freakin semester was just like this dark blur. omg, im seriously scared. as stupid and cliche as this sounds, i really feel like, an enlightenment. things really seem brighter. How can a moment of time turn into something like that?? OMG i am so sorry to anyone that noticed that i was being sullen. but now that i think about it, i really was. sullen. omg i feel so bad. but glad that i am back to ‘my old self’. oh god, i just hope that people dont totally dismiss me now because of how sullen i was for that time. i hope they can get over it, as i have. well, if there is anyone, anyways. maybe people didnt even care to notice. well, if you did: that means a lot to me. and, im sorry..!

holy shit, i am a HAPPY mother fucker.

first, FINALS ARE OVER. hardest semester of my life. over. holy huge relief, i could see the change in my mood yesterday already.

second, biggest surprise ever: christmas bonus for the digital division at the Bureua, 2005=new video ipod. I was SO surpised, and SO grateful. i love it.

third, Kany is amazing. absolutely muther fucking amazing. i am completely and utterly in love with him, and its wonderful.

fourth, i helped angie get her phone back. damn yeah. you DO NOT fuck with us, much less try and steal a phone from us, and especially not right out of our own house.

five, squirrel candles and john stewart calendars are the greatest christmas gifts ever, from the greatest friends ever. we are an ‘entity’, indeed.

six, i get to sleep in tomorrow, for the second day in a row. wonderful.

PEACE

Wow, I really must be doing something wrong….

I just wish that I would be CONFRONTED about this wrongdoing.

hellllllloooooooooooo,

hear me????

Black…

Red…

i just shed a tear or two because i am SO happy,

hell YEAH im your partner, soldier.

za za za.

Winter is fucking depressing.

but hey, at least the heat in our house is fixed. and i have blinds.

I wish I could be in Florida with Patrick, Nancy and the girls.

and anna called me again, YAY.

anyways, i hope everyone has a much better time than i.

wub

Yeah…so I feel like no matter what I say, it is either unintersting or doesnt make sense, because I feel like everything is just dismissed.

Plus, I’m sick of complaining, and lately I feel like I have been doing that a lot.

Ill just keep my mouth shut, that way, this cant happen.

So, if I appear quiet, that is why.