I just wanted to post this….because it is an amazing song: “Hope” by Twista.

I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks,
Knowing the cops is hot when I’m on the block, And I
Wish my brother woulda made bail,
So I won’t have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail, And I
Wish that my grandmother wasn’t sick,
Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick, And I (I wish)
Wish my homies wouldn’t have to suffer,
When the streets get the upper had on us and we lose a brother, And I
Wish I could go deep in a zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this song, And I (I wish)
Wish I could teach a could teach a soul to fly,
Take away the pain out cha hands and help you hold them hi, And I
Wish God never gave the men power
To be able to hurt the people inside the Twin Towers, And I (I wish)
Wish God woulda turned they hearts righteous,
When they started to take innocent lives and become snipers, But uh
We will never break, don’t underestimate, we shall motivate,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day,
The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain’t gotta cry today.
Sit at the light so long,
And then we gotta move straight forward, cuz we fight so strong,
So when right go wrong,
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on!!!
Let’s HOPE!

Cuz I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way
I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay.
Let’s be hopeful!

I wish that you could show some love,
Instead of hatin so much when you see some other people commin up (I wish)
I wish I could teach the world to sing,
Watch the music and have ‘em trippin of the joy I bring, (shiit)
I wish that we could hold hands,
Listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man, And I (I wish)
Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks
Brand new shack and a lack that’s on dubs, And I
Wish we could keep achieving wonders,
See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (you feel me) (I wish)
And I hope all the kids eat,
And don’t nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig)
I hope them mothers stain’ strong,
You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone, And I (I wish)
Wish I could give every celly some commissary,
And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R. Kelly, And I
Wish that DOC could scream again
And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (shit) (I wish)
Then one day they could speak again,
I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN,
I wish that enemies could talk,
And that super homie Christopher Reeves could still walk, (I wish)
I wish that we could walk a path, stay doin the right thing
Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game,
Let’s HOPE

Cuz I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way
I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay.
Let’s be hopeful!

Wish the earth wasn’t so apocalyptic,
I try to spread my message to the world the best way I can give it,
We can make it always so optimistic,
If you don’t listen gotta live my life the best way I can live it,
I pray for justice when we go to court,
Wish it was all good so the country wouldn’t have to go to war,
Why can’t we kick it and just get em on,
And in the famous words of Mr. King “Why can’t we all just get along”,
Or we can find a better way to shop and please, And I
Hope we find a better way to cop a keys, And I
Wish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfillin these downfalls and prophecies,
You can be wrong if it’s you doubting,
With the faith of a must to see drinkin moon mountains,
And only the heavenly father and ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church!!
And let’s HOPE

Cuz I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way
I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay.
Let’s be hopeful!

Pretty much just want to say how much I love my friends. I know I’ve said before that if there was any way I could express how much i really do care for people even though they might not think i care at all…its so extraordinary i cannot put it into words. First of all, everything anyone does for me, i notice. and ill never forget the things people have done for me, no matter how small. second, one of those people that i love so much i cant put into words, Anna Potter. I wake up and look at my computer, i had left my aim on, and this is what i see:

Anna: there’s nothing you can do that can’t be done
Anna: there’s nothing you can sing that can’t be sung
Anna: there’s nothing you can do but you can learn how to play the game
Anna: it’s easy…
Anna: all you need is love!
Anna: all you need is love!
Anna: all you need is love, love
Anna: love is all you need
Anna: and i love you@
Anna signed off at 3:02:00 AM.

if you ever read this….it meant SO much to me. and i miss you

and im sorry that ive been so far away.

Pretty much just want to say how much I love my friends. I know I’ve said before that if there was any way I could express how much i really do care for people even though they might not think i care at all…its so extraordinary i cannot put it into words. First of all, everything anyone does for me, i notice. and ill never forget the things people have done for me, no matter how small. second, one of those people that i love so much i cant put into words, Anna Potter. I wake up and look at my computer, i had left my aim on, and this is what i see:

Anna: there’s nothing you can do that can’t be done
Anna: there’s nothing you can sing that can’t be sung
Anna: there’s nothing you can do but you can learn how to play the game
Anna: it’s easy…
Anna: all you need is love!
Anna: all you need is love!
Anna: all you need is love, love
Anna: love is all you need
Anna: and i love you@
Anna signed off at 3:02:00 AM.

if you ever read this….it meant SO much to me. and i miss you and im sorry that ive been so far away.

just a note to say how much i dislike sororities.

pretty much the only thing they are good for is a nice wireless connection. shit, does that mean that i cant hate them…if i depend on them?

…weeeeelllll, still dont like ‘em.

peace!

so im reading about the Mozart Effect. This guy, Don Campbell conveys that Mozart’s music has positive effects on spatial intelligence, speech, hearing and learning disabilities, and well-being. he even goes on to say that while mozart is playing in the background, yeast makes better cake, and cows produce more milk. i believe his main objective in his studies is to put forth that mozart should always be playing in the background. or, at least be used regularaly for a “remedy.”

But what I want to question, is what about desensitization? Isnt it just a matter of time before our brain doesnt react to it anymore? Would our brain build up a tolerance for Mozart? Will people get addicted to it? Or, would the human race evolve to where our brain doesnt even pick up on it anymore because of the desensitization?

plus, he tries to convice his readers that listening to music is like eating foods. that certain foods have different effects on the mind and body. like eating a “hot mexican meal, or a sweet dessert, each will affect us–tempramentally and physically–much different than a spinach salad.” And then he goes on to say that we might like the taste of things like ice cream or steak dinners, but what really is the most nutritionally beneficial would be something like ‘brown rice primavera’ and that the same goes for music.

so basically, we might think we know what kind of music is ‘therapeutic’ to us, or that we like certain kinds, but Mozart is the most nutritional for us.

what an asshole.

so im reading about the Mozart Effect. This guy, Don Campbell conveys that Mozart’s music has positive effects on spatial intelligence, speech, hearing and learning disabilities, and well-being. he even goes on to say that while mozart is playing in the background, yeast makes better cake, and cows produce more milk. i believe his main objective in his studies is to put forth that mozart should always be playing in the background. or, at least be used regularaly for a “remedy.”

But what I want to question, is what about desensitization? Isnt it just a matter of time before our brain doesnt react to it anymore? Would our brain build up a tolerance for Mozart? Will people get addicted to it? Or, would the human race evolve to where our brain doesnt even pick up on it anymore because of the desensitization?

plus, he tries to convice his readers that listening to music is like eating foods. that certain foods have different effects on the mind and body. like eating a “hot mexican meal, or a sweet dessert, each will affect us–tempramentally and physically–much different than a spinach salad.” And then he goes on to say that we might like the taste of things like ice cream or steak dinners, but what really is the most nutritionally beneficial would be something like ‘brown rice primavera’ and that the same goes for music.

so basically, we might think we know what kind of music is ‘therapeutic’ to us, or that we like certain kinds, but Mozart is the most nutritional for us.

what an asshole.

so, last night after talking to kenny (one of the greatest conversations ive had with anyone…in a long time) i realized why i hate lying.

heres the thing: i love listening to other peoples opinions and the knowledge behind their opinions because it is like learning to me. ..or maybe research is the right word, i do not know. but i take other peoples insight and opinions and use that to formulate or modify my own by what makes sense to me.

well, if someone gives me false information (a lie), and i take it for true, then it fucks everything up. i might take that false information and use it. but if i do, because it is false, it skews the result.

that fucking pisses me off.

its like, liers are the reason why people are fucked up…or dont understand things the way that they should.

how can people live with themselves after doing something like that?

hole-EEEEE-shit. wowie. wow. wowowowow.

a.) The Hideaway: Never been so confused in my entire life.

b.) Everyone in this house was sleeping by 11:09pm

c.) So, I take my toothbrush, toothpaste, and facewash into the bathroom to do my nightly right-before-bed thing, and before I know it I have the facewash bottle upside-down on top of my toothbrush about to squeeze it onto there. What. The. Hell.

so, ive decided that i hate the fact that everything revolves around Time and Money. It really is ridiculous. But at the same time, I guess I have to respect that.

So, I got a feather bed pad for my bed yesterday, and I slept on it last night. Best. Investment. Ever. Oooohhhhh I slept so goooood last night. The only thing that could have possibly made it better was someone to cuddle with.

Oooohhhh man, I pretty much cant wait to go to bed tonight because it will be so incredible. I wish you could feel it. Amazing.

Oh yeah, and I love night air.