heh. shawn. i miss that lil guy. remember when joey tried beating his land speed record doing 90 on the gravel road. baaahahahaha.

“this coming from the guy who tried to beat his land speed record of 90 on a gravel road…”

hahaha, okay. SO. I just read that I decided to join the “Dead Babies” group here on myspace, and it reminded me. My Geology teacher…everytime he talks about rocks (such as those in landslides and stuff…pretty much the heaviest you can get that something like water or air can move it.) He calls them ‘baby heads’ So whever hes talking about landslides and rivers carrying sediment…its always ‘the baby head sized rocks’
I laugh a little to myself every time.

AND THEN. okay, for this geology class…weirdest class ever. okay is weird spelled wierd or weird. you will notice that everytime i spell it, it is different. hmm, i really wonder but am too lazy to actually find out. ANYWAYS, so in this class we had this assignment to write a movie script or synopsis of a movie that is about geology. HAHA, well, when i was talking about what i should write this movie about, patrick suggests it be titled “Dude, That Rocks.” or “Dude, Wheres My Rock?” hahaha i love patrick. This coming from the guy who quoted Napoleon Dynamite with me at Chuckie Cheese’s talking about one of the waiters. Hes so awesome. I miss Patrick and Nancy. So anyways, my geology movie wasnt about rocks. *sadface* it ended up being about a domino effect of earthquakes on the west coast that got all the way to the grand canyone and killed 10000 people. heh. i made a really good dialogue with it too. anyways. wow i realize how useless this information is to anyone that doesnt care. wow.

peace.

so i was thinking (which i do often). i think its really funny how i sit here and type on these blogs, pouring my heart out…..to absolutely no one. no one even reads these. but you know, that is oooohkay. i like doing it, and this way i dont have to write. i hate writing. typing is so much easier.

i have these two oatmeal cookies that my co-worker rob gave me tonight. i cant believe how long it is taking me to eat them. wow. but i am having some green tea with them, and tea is delicious!

so i just re-read the first part of this post, and i was thinking (…heh) i would absolutely love it if i could record my thoughts. not the ones that i physically record already, but the ones that i dont and have no organization to. i would looovvee that. ill think about that some more.

so i was thinking…(wow) i am the biggest loser alive. i laugh at myself daily. today for instance, i was reading my blogs, cuz i like to, and sometimes i notice something that just makes me laugh. either i am put in the same mood i was in when i was writing it, or i find some hilarious comment that either wasnt meant to be hilarious, or is paradoxal. heh. im awesome. and i say wow a lot.

i miss everyone, you know who you are…and those of you that dont, should. if you have even the slightest hint that i miss you just a little, youre right. but instead of missing you a little, its A LOT.

peace

my tea bag is daaaaannccciiinnggg.

this weekend was so awesome im sooo glad i went back for Luc’s (wow i almost said graduation party wtf) birthday party. it was so kick ass. not only did they have 2 party balls, but i got to see sarah, tims and his friends were there, jizzy and i made a song, i got to go on the swing by where the fort used to be, and i got to see joey (which, i mustn’t lie, was the best part) hes so awesome. i missed him so much.
i didnt get to see heidi very much though. since i went back by the swing so much i didnt get to talk to her very much. i will see her soon though. i miss her too. wow i really hate missing people. it has to be one of THE worst feelings EVER.

so i should really be doing homework, but wow. worst. student. ever.

which reminds me, i gave anna a comment saying that i would like to award myself with the worst friend ever award because i truly am. i havent spoken to her in real time since i went to visit her. thats a whole month, wow. and i miss her too.

wow with all of these horrible feelings youd think id be in a bad mood. NOPE. its funny cuz i was talking to patrick about this today and i dont know how long its been since ive openly been in a bad mood. its weird because i know inside and i even tell myself how crabby i am, but when i talk to people and whatever, it never shows. i kinda like that. but its really hard for me to be in a bad mood right now, just cuz. and when i think about it, i cant stop smiling.

its amazing because for the past 3 weeks ive been getting 6 or less hours of sleep every night…yes, even on weekends. how am i still alive i do not know. but youd think that would add to the crabbiness. but there is none.

sometimes i wish people would call me. just to talk. i dont get to just talk as much anymore. but then again, its my fault too for not calling others. wow i just cant win.

anyways another thing i have to be doing right now is make the schedule for our summer league volleyball. and i totally said that in the wrong order but i dont really care. instead of backing up and changing it, i write two whole more sentences about how dumb i am. which i guess adds to the dumbness.

thats perplexing. it truly is amazing how many times i want to say the word perplexing, but can never say it outloud because it reminds me of amanda brix. wow, worst. person. ever. i hate the fact that i even thought about her right now. but since im on the topic how about the time when shes the most horrible person ever. maybe it makes me equally as horrible talking about her this way, but no, she deserves it. remember how she tries coming to our Linn family get togethers. or to the Solution 13 shows. what is she thinking. not only does everyone thats there hate her besides her supposed ‘fiance’ (poor eric), but she holds him back from being able to have fun and talk to his friends. wow. i dont even want to talk about it anymore.

i made a new bracelet today. i got some new star beads from the dollar store and i made one with blue and orange stars. its pretty and on my left wrist along with the bracelet that sarah gave me. i dont think i will take that sarah bracelet off for a very very long time, if ever. either that or i will have to have a pretty damn good ass reason to. i miss sarah. fuck this missing shit. how selfish am i for going away to college.
oh god. what would have happened if i would have gone really far away for school. i would have died i think. first of all, i would never have even talked to joey because he hates the phone. second, its so hard already to get back as often as i can, imagine otherwise. that kinda makes me glad. cuz then i might never even met tim’s friends. and i wouldnt have been able to go to his show. and wow. good thing.

well, my arm is starting to hurt, im excited for bingo tonight. peace.

ps i really need to see anchorman again really really soon.

I just found this off of Sam’s myspace…and i just thought it was good. it makes me really lonely though.

I Don’t Know How To Tell You
-Ian Rowland-

I can’t say that I haven’t had my chances
And from time to time I nearly found a way
But the moment’s never right and I can’t find the perfect words
To tell you everything I want to say

I think you read my mind each time I see you
No places left to hide or to pretend
But I wonder if I’m going to get those legendary lines
About how it’s best if we stay just good friends

I don’t know how to tell you
So just let me know you know
Take my hand and show me
That I don’t have to let go
Let me understand you
And I will stay or go
‘Cos I don’t know how to tell you
So just let me know you know

Believe me I have tried to find the moment
It seems I’ve thought it through a thousand times
Just wondering what would happen, what you would say to me
What message I’d see written in your eyes

Ever since I met you
I guess that I can say
I have known this moment
Would have to come one day
Ever since I met you
How could it not be true
I would have to face the question
Is there a me and you?

wow, im sitting here…drinking tea, surfing myspace, and watching the oc.

i am so fucking classy.

peace