sshhhhhh! the kittens are sleeeeeeeping!

hitler would wake the kittens. you dont want to be like hitler do you?

So, I discovered something today that is absolutely fascinating to me.

I was reseraching indentured servitude and its impact on the development on the colonies when I came across this statement:

“Also, servants moved on, forcing a need for costly replacements; slaves, especially ones you could identify by skin color, could not move on and become free competitors.”

First of all, that pisses me off because it was just because the already weathly landowners didnt want these people once theyve finally made it on their own after working their asses off rather than having every fucking thing handed to them to succeed–that just might take away a few dollars or pounds from those greedy fuckers. They wanted all the wealth and competition to themeselves.

Second of all (and this is the discovery part), the way this quote is worded brought something to my attention that I had never ever thought of before: The only reason African Americans were the ones that ended up being subjected and isolated to slavery was because they were easily identifiable by their skin color, not because they were inferior or foreign. This identification would prevent someone who isn’t a slave to be confused as one.

maybe im not the first person to think of that, but I definately have never heard it put that way before.

I long….

I would just like to say how much I like this book.

Here are some quotes from it that really caught my attention:

“We’re in such a hurry most of the time we never get much chance to talk. The result is a kind of endless day-to-day shallowness, a monotony that leavs a person wondering years later where all the time went and sorry that it’s all gone.” (pg 7)

“You are never dedicated to something you have complete confidence in. No one is fanatically shouting that the sun is going to rise tomorrow. They know it’s going to rise tomorrow. When people are fanatically dedicated to political or religious faiths or any other kinds of dogmas or goals, it’s always because these dogmas or goals are in doubt.” (pg. 134)

“…that kind of motivation is destructive. Any effort that has self-glorification as its final endpoint is bound to end in disaster. … When you try to climb a mountain to prove how big you are, you almost never make it. And even if you do it’s a hollow victory. In order to sustain the victory you have to prove yourself again and again in some other way, and again and again and again, driven forever to fill a false image, haunted by the fear that the image is not true and someone will find out. That’s never the way.” (pg. 189)

“If subjectivity is eliminated as unimportant…then the entire body of science must be eliminated with it.” (pg. 211)

“Stuckness shouldn’t be avoided. It’s the predecessor of all real understanding.” (pg. 257)

“The result is rather typical of modern technology, an overall dullness of appearance so depressing that it must be overlaid with a veneer of “style” to make it acceptable. … Now its not just depressingly dull, its phony. Put the two together and you get a pretty accurate description of modern American technology: stylized cars and stylized outboard motors and stylized typewriters and stylized clothes. Stylized refrigerators filled with stylized food in stylized kitchens in stylized houses. Plastic stylized toys for stylized children, who at Christmas and birthdays are in style with their stylish parents. You have to be awfully stylish yourself not to get sick of it once in a while.” (pg 263)

“…When you travel a path and note that another path breaks away to one side at, say, a 30-degree angle, and then later another path branches away to the same side at a broader angle, say 45 degrees, and another path later at 90 degrees, you begin to understand that there’s some point over there that all the paths lead to and that a lot of people have found it worthwhile to go that way, and you begin to wonder out of curiousity if perhaps that isn’t the way you should go too.” (pg 301)

peace

‘He’ ..1

Sometimes, I cant figure out why he does some of the things that he does. Sometimes I think I know, but then I either second guess myself or throw the thought out. And then I wonder…do I really want to know why he does some of the things that he does? If so, why? Am I afraid that the answer wont be what I want it to be? If so, why?

I. dont. know.

‘He’ ..2

Sometimes when he’s talking, I think he’s about something in particular but just in different terms so that unless you know him as well as who hes talking to you cant figure it out. But then I wonder…am I really figuring it out? Does that mean I know him better than I thought? OR, does that mean that I am just hoping that I know and really dont? And then, if I were to ever apply that potential knowledge, would I be right or make a fool of myself being wrong? OR, what if these different terms really arent different terms at all? What if he really was sincerely talking about those particular terms without depth? But then I think…I know him better than that; nothing goes without depth. That is what is so fascinating about him to me. But then it goes back to the fact that I dont know if I really am figuring it out. So, this entire thought process is just a viscous circle. However, it occurs to me often whenever he’s around.

non-arrogant, modest superiority…?

I know how this probably sounds, but I know exactly what Brian and Shawn were talking about that night down at the lake. I’ve obviously never forgotten it, but I thought I knew exactly what they were talking about then. I really do know. I think I knew a taste of what it is that night, but now I definitely know.

These two are the only ones that I have encountered with the same mindset. There are some people that are intellectually and conceptually superior. They think in terms unlike the rest in an incredibly abstract, yet concrete way. Yet, there is different types of these people. The ones I am referring to, are those that think this way, know they think this way, yet aren�t boastful or egotistical about it at all. These people also have a connection between them. They can get their abstract points across to each other without having to fully explain themselves.

do you know where i wish i was right now…..AT THE SLIPKNOT CONCERT!

i tried winning tickets on 93X millions of times….but i failed. *sigh*

i wish i was with you my dear slipknot.

peace

i am not above the weather today…

so, Angie and I have this theory.

If we died on any given day…it would take at least 4 days for anyone to
a.) notice somethings wrong,
b.) find us.