I bought TWO new pairs of light up flip flops and I must say, they - are - AWESOME! I now have three pair and I wish I had more because I LOVE flip flops.

It was beautiful weather today. 28 March and 60 degrees please. Flip flop weather. LUBBIN IT.

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anna has a roommate named Annelise (pronounced anna lisa) and i think that is such a beautiful name. i think its so amazing that if i ever have a girl child, that will be her name.

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dude, im in california. just so you know. and it really IS all its cracked up to be. like i said to “brown josh” tonight…if i could afford it, i would transfer here IN A SECOND. although i dont know if i could go here per se because i am not lutheran…but technically im non denominational so i would be willing to declare myself lutheran in order to go here…its THAT awesome.

anyways, anna had this show tonight in which she was HILARIOUS. it was a show about mental patients and she was ‘joan of arc’ with an armor helmet and a cross and she was just amazing. i truly missed her and love her to an immense degree.

its amazing to me (and she said something about this today too) that i miss the people that know me. you wouldnt think it would be that hard to just be yourself, but it is. its like, if there arent people there like you, they need to like accept you. and if they dont accept you fully and completely, then you cant be yourself because you constantly need to be molding to their ways. and until now i never really noticed that. it has been incredibly hard for me to be MYSELF at the U of M without people that know me…or are willing to accept me for me.

its just so welcoming here. there are a lot of friendly people. or fake, i dont know. but ….and beautiful. there are palm trees and plants inside the dorm hall area. its a square building with an open inside and inside is where the trees and plants are. beautiful. people here must take it for granted. and we drove to town today to go to Jack In The Box (first timer) and beyond the city…the horizon with mountains….amazing.

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so, have you ever tried to pee while yawning? yeah it randomly happened to me today…..i dont think its possible.

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what if when youre high is the only time youre ever really alive. i mean, here we are thinking that most of the world is alive and aware and when people get high or drink they are numbing themselves to whats real. well what if its when youre high or drunk is the only time when you are really alive and aware only when youre high. and when youre “normal” but you are actually numb to whats real the whole time.

so if you think about it, the people that get high or drink are so lucky. to be able to be that stimulated about whats real.

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best fricken show ever. dude it was almost better than the snocore tour. fuck, i had so much fun. i dont think i could like any band any more than i love them. for real. i mean, i had high expectations for their first performance, but dude they exceeded them by a mass amount.

La Mayoria

Los otros no son mismos.
Aunque los dos nos salimos,
A mi yo no olvidare.
Para las cosas tenemos juntos,
A mi yo no olvidare.
Siempre seres Como El Gato.
Si lo robas, es barato
La ropa de AE tomar�
Haciendo nada a trabajo en camar�
Que haceras ‘Para Un Dolor…’
Y el estado de humor
A mi yo no olvidare.
No tengo que decirte pero
A mi yo no olvidare.
El club comico de la dama embarazada
Sera conmigo la dia cada.
Los quinces de Noviembres
El concilio eramos miembros y
Recordara meyor las pelotas de carne, cara
Porque nunca rei tanto para.
No es mismo sin ti,
Pero te esperara a ti.
A mi yo no olvidare.
Para las cosas tenemos juntos,
A mi yo no olvidare.

peace

man, theres a lot going on lately.
So tomorrow im heading off to St. Cloud for the guys’ show at Cheap Thrills. Angie is coming with, i totally cant wait. And I talked to Laurie and Heidi on the phone and we are planning on going out for dinner before the show. Laurie is calling Jen too, i really hope she comes i want to see her real bad. and Heidi is going to tell Mandy and whoever else. I talked to Jizzy and Josh and they both said they would come and that they would tell others as well. Josh said he is going to try to ask the whole band to come. wouldnt that rock your socks off? i really hope that happens. anyways whoever shows up it will be a blast. i think we are planning on going to godfathers. then the show starts at 8, but the guys are second, so they might not start until closer to 9. im real excited.

Solution 13. the name has become familiar, but i definately like Spotless Mind that they had before the changed it. and i was thinking today, i dont know why, but i thought that Catalyst would be a really awesome band name. if i ever have any influence over any bands title, that will be it. :)

anyways then friday Angies friend from River Falls is supposed to come visit us. i really hope she does, Rachel is really awesome. but then we need to get beer…hmmm.

and Como El Gato will be in the cities too! i really hope we can do something together. we will and we will have a fucking blast. i wrote her this poem. i will post it in another blog. but i put it on different backgrounds and printed it on some really nice glossy paper for her. i think there are 5 different ones and i am going to give them to her when i see her. i mean to have it done by her birthday or christmas, but i didnt. and im really glad i waited to actually because from one of my classes i learned photoshop better and was able to use that to make it look really nice. (see next blog entry for poem.)

and then saturday is Heidis birthday thing. we are going to the casino to gamble, since she will finally be able to. next is the strip club. dont worry, i will get her to go with me.

and saturday during the day i am going to try to get out to Patrick and Nancys new house and help them as much as i can. i really hope i will be able to help.

and sunday, well see how it looks, i might come into work for a few hours. yeah…i probably will. well see.

and then spring break is the next weekend and im off to california to see Anna! oh god i dont think i could be more excited. for real. smeh smeh smeh.

and then monday i start training since this guy got fired at work. i was supposed to start today and tomorrow, but at such late notice and other commitments, it just didnt work out. so monday it is. im actually pretty excited.

peace

dude, i remember the cartoons……..

well i got in a fight with my beloved little sister Trista on sunday. she was being all self pitiful, hostile, and well, a brat. She IMed me telling me how Mom and Dad are so mean to her lately. and im like why how are they being mean, and shes like they never let me go on the internet anymore. and i was like, well, why do you think they are saying that. and i just was trying to give her insight as to how she was acting by bringing up some examples of how her actions may have caused that reaction from Mom and Dad, such as when its time for dinner her saying shes not hungry and just sitting on the internet. well then she started saying how i didnt know because i wasnt there to see and how i was being mean to her and making her want to cry. and then she brought up how mom and dad dont ever yell at Melanaly and i was like, i cant believe you actually think that. and then shes like you always take her side, just because i dont have someone close to my age… she was even like ‘well im just becoming a teenager and im sorry that mom and dad cant accept that’ (do you believe that) so finally i was like alright, wanna know what. when i was there, it was the same with you. you had the same shitty fucking attitude. and when i was there, you said so many times how much you hated me and how much you wanted me to leave. you would always say ‘dont you have somewhere to go like work or something’ and ‘just leave’ and how happy you would be once i left for college. and you want to talk about being mean and making someone want to cry. fuck that.

and then i was like look how mad you are, and she was like no im just trying to avoid you. and im like what a wonderful way to solve your problems, just walk away. and shes like well i cant just change overnight. and (as corny as this is) im like only you can be the one to change yourself. and then she was like well im not a good changer. and i was like only you can make yourself a better changer.

so then she IMed me the next day and was like ‘im trying to be nicer to mom and dad’ i was like that is so awesome Triff. so hopefully i got somewhere with her and she doesnt just forget right away. im afraid that is what will happen though. but i do love her to death and there is no way i could love either of my sisters any more than the other i just wish it wasnt so hard to show that…..

peace love and happiness to all