yeah…im really lazy today. i really should go to work for awhile and i really should go to the mall to exchange those shoes. but here i am just chilln here by myself. god im so damn classy.

okay, im really nervous. im thinking about having my major be entrepeneurial management so that means i would have to get into carlson school of management. well im really nervous that i wont get in. i tried to do a ‘change of college’ since its just another part of the u of m, but i was talking to this guy in my computer science lab and he said hes trying to get in too. but he said that the change of college thing doesnt work. its one of the best business schools in the country i guess and so its super competitive and you have to go through all of the admissions things, like an addendum and essays and stuff. and Heidis brother didnt get in either and so now im really nervous that i wont get in. we will see though. im still going to try really hard because its something that i really want to do.

also, i think im going to try to get a second job. i mean, i know i work myself really hard the way it is, but the truth is, i really really really miss working at a coffee shop and i really want to do that again. plus, i am just not getting as many hours as id like at the bureau. its so crazy how much i miss it though. especially because none of my friends down here ever want to go out for coffee with me. one time i got some of them to come out with me, but we got our coffee, sat down, and like 5 or 10 minutes later theyre like ‘ready to go?’ i was like are you kidding me. so yeah. i just miss it a lot a lot. i filled out an application for the little espresso royale place next to kinkos on washington, but i just havent turned it in yet. i should do that soon. very soon.

k, kbye

peace

sometimes i wish i could be a ‘normal’ college kid. one that doesnt have to work 20-30 hours a week and take 18 credits per semester and look for a second job and live off campus in a shitty ass apartment that smells like ass just because they cant afford anything better. one that can spend their extra money on beer and stuff instead of having to spend it on groceries just so they can eat.

….but then, i realize that selfishness isnt worth it. the world doesnt revolve around me, and it shouldnt. so im just going to keep on keepin on.

like i always say, youll only be that way if you let yourself be that way.

there are way too many good things in my life to let that get in the way.
there are way too many worse things that could happen.

so anyways as i pour my heart out to absolutley no one instead of studying like i should be, im going to end it at that even though i have so much more to say. i really hate not being able to put certain things into words. its like my mind races so fast that it cant pick up on everything and decipher it all. anyways i said i was done and i am.

peace