Friday, 18 Nov 2005
A few days ago, the fact came up that all of the cells in your body regenerate completely after about 7 years….except some brain cells. So basically, you are an entirely different person that you were 7 years ago…phsyically at least. And so, Ive been thinking, its weird how people change. Its also incredibly wierd how long it takes to figure people out. (but that is an entirely different topic)
Sometimes after having so much exposure to a person, I begin to think how alike we are. And for even longer, that still appears to be true…but then, all of a sudden they will do something or say something that you would never have expected them to say or do. And maybe they made an honest mistake, humans do that, it is in our very nature to make mistakes. And so if theyve said or done that something just one time, or under a random circumstance, maybe it isnt an accurate reflection of them. However, if they do or say something like that again, that becomes more reflective of them because it is something they do or say without thinking about it, and they will do the same things in the same situations. that is the sort of change i am talking about. maybe its been there the whole time but the right circumstances have never come up to allow that to come out. maybe theyve said or done that something in a different way that just wasnt as noticable and so that quality really has been somewhat apparent all along but it just took something that you can define in your own terms of a display of that certain quality for you to actually notice it.
it is incredibly fascinating to me to see this sort of thing. i mean, you think you really know a person, and then things happen, like, say, they move away. well, after theyve been away, things change, and very apparently. maybe theyre in an entirely new environment, surrounded by very different people, and are adapting to that. but the thing is, if there is something about you that is true about you (which in my opinion should be your entire SELF), it should not change depending upon what kind of environment you are in. so then you find out about these changes in that other person and think: “the person that i really knew, would NEVER have let themselves turn out this way.” not only because that person that i knew, seemed to be so defined, but also because that person that i knew was SO much different than the person they are now, and in such an unorthodox way. like, how can you say that you are happy, but everything that comes out of your mouth about what youre doing now is either negative or said with an underlying tone of remorse. especially when i knew what made you happy before and you are doing none of that now. and how can you do something SO humbling that you completely lose touch with yourself. knowing who you are and what you want is SO important to life. and if you devote your life to compromising yourself for others (literally), it contradicts the nature of human beings. and it contradicts the morals and philosophies i knew you had.
what do you do about something like this without imposing…?
honestly though, the part I said before about your true self, knowing who you are and liking that person, is something I believe everyone should know. If you don’t like yourself, why should anyone else like you?




