Sunday, 14 Aug 2005
i was talking to angie one time, and we had been talking about that terri schiavo case and we both decided that if we have no purpose in life anymore, for whatever reason, we dont want to be alive. if i cant be conscious or in my actions make an impact on anyone or an ything, then there is no reason for me to be alive. i truly feel that way. if i am in such a bad condition that i need to be on life support, pull the plug. i never want to be such a burden on anyone.
which comes to my next point. last night we were talking in the van on the way home from shawns lucky birthday night at sugar daddys. brian brought up that he wants to die in massive amounts of debt, but i dont think he realized that someone has to take that after he dies. you have to make a will, and if you dont, then it just goes to the state, or the government. and i said that i want there to be at least one someone that is worth working my whole life just to leave them something in my will. because, if ive lived my whole life and everything that i have from my life just goes to the government, what was it worth for?
peace