this weekend kany and i went to mom and dads. saturday we went to a M.A.D.D. Panel in St. Cloud. it was pretty emotional, but i dont believe in drinking and driving anyways, especially after dad told me a story about how one of his friends was killed by drinking and driving…but it just reinforces it a little i guess. and then kany and i played mini golf in albany in the rain, three rounds. it was pretty awesome. we each got 2 hole in one’s, and we were rockin it. that was really fun, and the rain didnt even bother us at all! it love it. and then we went home and hung out. we played a texas hold em tournament, and i won. it was only a $2 buy in, but there was 6 of us, so it was really fun. kany and dad were sooo funny with their sunglasses and poker faces. hahahaha. then menomonie went to a party and came home “wasted” and started talking about avons in mcdonalds and shippaling and handling…hahahahaha. then sunday we helped mom and dad split wood for a little while, ran to st cloud, then helped mom and dad with some yard work. kany mowed the lawn with a dixon, he was running that shit, it was funny, but he did a really good job. and kany weed wacked the edges even! haha he really was running that shit. haha. and i spray painted the hitch on the back of the camper and tried helping dad wire the lights for the trailer behind the camper. and then made hamburgers on the grill, and did a few loads of laundry, and then after we ate we played another tournament. but this time it was dealer chooses what game we play, cards or dice. we all started out with 10 chips. ($2 buy in again). menomonie ended up winning, trista took 2nd place.

it was a REAL fun weekend. i had tons of fun. except that i wasnt invited to erichs graduation party…well, until the day of, which was saturday. im not going to lie, i was a little hurt by that. especially since heidi didnt even tell me about it until the day of. but oh well, now i know, right. the worst part about it is that erich never even called me at all. heidi did, and it was still at the last minute and heidi even said on the phone that she knew that erich wasnt sending me an invitation in the mail and that she was afraid that he would forget to call me. but i said too that it was partly my fault since i have been really bad about calling heidi very much lately. i dont know. i guess its just hard for me because i always make it a point not to forget about any of my close friends, its really important to me to make people feel like they are always welcome, because they are, to me. but…and, i dont want to assume, and its terrible of me to even still say it, but i have the idea that heidi might not have even called me as early as she did, (if you can call early the day of the party). i think the only reason why she did was because jessica called me friday night (the night before) asking what i was up to that night, but i couldnt do anything because i was picking up patrick from the airport. and then she was just like, “well thats okay cuz ill see you tomorrow for erichs party, right?” and i was like, uhh, what party. and i told her that i knew nothing about it and she could tell that i was hurt by that. so i think jessica mentioned something to heidi and thats why she called me. but i do know how busy things get and stuff, and at least she did still call me, so i can forgive them. it just really hurt, you know..? disappointment hurts. but the other side of disappointment is that I created the expectation that wasnt met, I created the disappointment myself, so I have to be the one to forgive….i guess.
BUT, the best part is, i had so much more fun at mom and dads with the family, mostly because i just dont feel like partying as much anymore, but also because everyone would have been weird towards me since i said straight up that i was hurt by not being told about it. i think people (in general, please) dont really know how to deal with someone actually confronting them…oh well.