so, ive been thinking and talking about this a lot recently. it truly is amazing how so many people can go through life taking so many things for granted…and especially: life itself.

what tipped this off for me this time, was i was driving home from work last week and it was about to storm and you could see the break in the clouds and the front of clouds in the sky and it was simply amazing to me. beautiful. i even swerved onto the shoulder a good 3 times during this moment. i honestly felt like i was floating. so many things raced through my mind at once, but what it all came down to is….i really wish people could have a greater appreciation….for life. honestly, people really just need to STOP. i mean, i understand how things get, especially this day and age, to get caught up in being busy and stuff. but you still need to just stop and take a moment to get back in touch. cuz i mean, once you loose that appreciation and that relationship with reality…everything is lost. i honestly dont understand how people can go through life taking everything for granted and not even think twice about it. as i was driving too another thing i noticed was that nearly every car i saw was either an expensive one, an SUV, or both. then i got to thinking that mostly the only people i see speeding are those that own these types of vehicles. SO, i got to thinking…why do people think they need to own such commodities? i mean, here i am in my 93 oldsmobile two tone car…and i feel such a sense of gratefulness that i even own something as nice as that. there is a difference, however. if someone truly appreciates cars and even go so far as to say they have a passion for them, thats different. but, it is that appreciation that matters. and not just these commodities…but life. life is so amazing and beautiful. do people not realize how excruciatingly WORSE things COULD be? do people not understand how incredibly lucky we are to be able to live the lives that we live, to be able to think and dream and imagine. i dont know… the worst part is…i feel like there is nothing i can really do about it. like i told kany…if there is one thing that i could ever wish to accomplish in my life that would mean the most to me…it would be to get just one person to go from that to this. to get them to realize (and most importantly, continue to be in constant realization of) how beautiful and truly exquisite life is.

that, for me, would be enough….but to be able to go even further than that…to realize (and again, be in constant realization of) who you are. to be so in touch with yourself, personally. it is the most fulfilling feeling. i think though that once you have one…the other is easily within reach.

so far, the only place i have seen such attitudes (personally, in my own reality), is my cousins. and Flaw:

A very temperamental process, beginning with
all of our excess
Affecting our very own ingest, this side of
you is speechless
Overwhelmed with an abscess, creating new diseases
And infecting whomever it pleases, we’ve been
living this way for too long, too long

Then I noticed a difference, in the way that I
saw other insects
Who were living a life of indulgence, sheltered
by their parents
Such an unlucky existence, not given a
chance to experience
And make their own decisions, I wouldn’t trade
my own mistakes at all

::Chorus::
Reach out your hands
Out for the ones who, aid when the going gets rough
Until the end.
These are the ones who, help when the times get tough
And times will get tough.
Get up again.
Times will get tough.
Get up again

Here it comes once again

Get Up Again
by Flaw