Wednesday, 10 May 2006
You were the first person in my life that I couldn’t read. The first person that I couldnt just adapt to their thought and action patterns and be able to closely predict what they were thinking given certain things that they said or did. Ive always felt that I could do this easily with others, even if I might not have been right. and even if i shouldnt have. But with you, I couldnt. I couldnt even come close. I was lost. And maybe it was because I cared so much about what you thought or felt that I didnt want to try and then be wrong and have misunderstandings. And I dont know how that still happened, but I do know that my concept of ‘being lost’ has definately been redefined in so many ways…
You were also the first person in my life that I didn’t hold back my feelings for. You were the first person that made me feel so comfortable that I didnt have to hold anything back. You appreciated me the way I needed to be appreciated. You’ve given so much to me, thank you.