i dont really know what to write today, but somehow i just want to. its funny because after i wrote that first sentence, i sat here for about 5 minutes thinking of what to write, and guess what i came up with….? nothing. I guess i just kinda feel depressed. i mean, being broke REALLY sucks, and what sucks even more is feeling like youre working your buns off yet not being able to really make a dent in doing anything about it. and what sucks even worse is feeling like i was pushed into this situation. why dont i have a job right now? i honestly couldnt tell ya. i seem to remember someone telling me that a job would always be there when i needed it, yet, its not. oh well, im over it, i guess. its just so hard to be in transition, and in such a weird type of transition. i mean, do i apply at restaurants and coffeeshops (if i could even get in with my stupid school schedule being all over the place) to maybe work there for a few months until i graduate, upon which i will necessarily be attempting to find a job that actually puts my skills to use? or what? or what? i guess i just need a little guidance. or something. it sucks cuz i feel like i need someone to talk to, yet cant find the right words to say. but then, thats always been a problem of mine. which brings me to my next topic, French. man, sometimes i feel like im rockin that language, and the next its like i know nothing. i just really want to be comfortable with it, but why the heck is it so damn hard for me to speak it? maybe for the same reason that ive always had problems with words in english too. who knows. someday i think ill figure it out. but for right now, im just Lost.
which brings me to my next topic, the show, Lost. How freakin excellent is this show anyways? oh man, so many questions. i shall have to come back to this topic though because i must get myself out the door to go to class, then to work the wonderful world of assembly line. (which somedays is actually not so bad, its just the thought of how i got here to begin with that is so bad).

peace.