Tuesday, 1 Feb 2005
sometimes i wish i could be a ‘normal’ college kid. one that doesnt have to work 20-30 hours a week and take 18 credits per semester and look for a second job and live off campus in a shitty ass apartment that smells like ass just because they cant afford anything better. one that can spend their extra money on beer and stuff instead of having to spend it on groceries just so they can eat.
….but then, i realize that selfishness isnt worth it. the world doesnt revolve around me, and it shouldnt. so im just going to keep on keepin on.
like i always say, youll only be that way if you let yourself be that way.
there are way too many good things in my life to let that get in the way.
there are way too many worse things that could happen.
so anyways as i pour my heart out to absolutley no one instead of studying like i should be, im going to end it at that even though i have so much more to say. i really hate not being able to put certain things into words. its like my mind races so fast that it cant pick up on everything and decipher it all. anyways i said i was done and i am.
peace