Monday, 13 Apr 2009

family

If you’re the kind of person that values family a lot, and you’re in a position (that you‘ve chosen to be in) where you do not get to see your family often, but you have the opportunity to see a family that embraces you and loves you like their own and is extremely excited to see you every time they get the chance, wouldnt you want to embrace them back, as the next best thing? Especially instead of pushing them away and refusing to see them? By pushing them away and refusing to see them every time you have the opportunity to see them, doesnt that make it seem like you don’t like them? But if that is not true, and you DO like them, then what is the answer? What is the reason for refusing to see them?

It is important to me to know the answer, because it doesn’t make sense to me.

Sunday, 12 Apr 2009

happy fucking easter

It was really fun watching my mom cry today because of how hurt she is that you never want to come visit them.

They were so excited just to see you for an hour…..for once in a LONG time. But no, you “didnt feel like driving.”

What am I supposed to think?

Monday, 9 Feb 2009

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I enjoy the hazelnut flavor. It’s unbelievable, the best hazelnut flavored coffee of any brand…I’ve tried them all.

Monday, 24 Nov 2008

this one’s for the leaders….

For The Leaders - Luciano

This is my appeal
To all your leaders out there, to stop the war.
Cuz theres no justifiable reason
It’s about time..that you realize…that your not fulfilling your true purpose

This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world
This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world

Think about the youths, who are dying out, (dying out)
Crying out (crying out) for love.
Victims of the system, we divide and grow
To break us down, & tear us apart
What is the future of the human race
How will the children grow to take our place
Where is the love that we should all embrace
I do believe it’s here, for you and me

This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world
This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world

Thiiiiis one..is for, the leaders who are fighting war..
All over the wooorld
Imagine all the money, that you spend on arms
Guns and bombs, to destroy
While people are left hungry, to die from wants
And those who do survive are unemployed
What is the future of the human race
How will the children grow to take our place
Where is the love that we should all embrace
I do believe, it here for you and me

This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world
This one’s for the leaders, who are fighting war.
All over..the world

This one..This one…(for the children)…This one
Thiiiiiiss oooooooonnnnnneee, This one for the, This one for the
This one for the leaders
This one, this one is for the leaders…

Tuesday, 11 Nov 2008

what do i do? what do i do to deserve to be treated this way?

What do I do..?
I need to know right now what do I do to be treated with such disrespect, so I can change it. What do I do to make people look at me and think: “She is an idiot. She is completely worthless, can’t do anything right, and I need to make sure she knows it!” so regularly?? I wish I could admit this is a little extreme, but I feel it is not.
So, what is it? What am I doing wrong?
I desperately seek an answer.

Tuesday, 11 Nov 2008

i don’t ask for much

you know, I don’t ask for much….only a little respect. i mean, I do all of the dishes, laundry, grocery shopping, cooking, bill paying, cleaning, errand running, all of that, alone, without complaining……on top of a full time job too…

You say you’re going to take care of one month, one month of the bill paying. You didn’t step up to the plate…and it’s all my fault? And, you get to be mad at me?

Friday, 17 Oct 2008

what have I done so…?

why can’t you please just be nice to me?

Thursday, 16 Oct 2008

Of a man whom I cannot name…

His condescending nature is so rampant he could make Einstein feel stupid. Think of the layman…!

Wednesday, 15 Oct 2008

long day longing for home and hubby

I’m just sad at the fact that all day long all I could think about how badly I just wanna get home. I just wanna get home to cuddle with my hubby…and because he decided to “read” my actions as crabby right away when I got home, I mean literally like within minutes. and sure I was rushing around trying to take care of all the things that need to get taken care of…like putting your laundry away and making sure the frozen fruit doesn’t thaw and go bad….doing that as fast as I could so alas I could finally hang with my baby, and trying to talk him over the blaring tv, apparently this is yelling, and I don’t even get eye contact because I’m crabby And yelling. not even given a chance to be written off as anything but crabby. so I apologize if I am a little upset, but what a way to be greeted after a long ass day.

and

Tuesday, 17 Jun 2008

how do you tell me you love me?

why can’t you communicate to me what is going on in your life?
why cant you look to me for support?
instead you give me the cold shoulder.
that doesnt tell me you love me.

id rather have someone kick the shit out of me than get the cold shoulder.
thats not an exaggeration.